Tuesday, July 26, 2005
oh! congrats to my jnrs n super jnrs for clinching the 'A' div guys title, 'A' div girls title, n the 'B' div girls title in last wk's national canoeing championships 2005! hm.. tho i think the snr girls basically agree dat the guys team dun really deserve the title for all the superstar attitutes, i'm really proud of my jnrs for successfully defending the championship titles n even winning the 'B' div girls title! the last few races of the day were really heart-stopping cos of the close competition between NJ guys team n HCI's guys team for the title. in the end NJ won by 2 precious tiny little pts! i'm sure my yong was really relieved when he found out dat we won narrowly. we all were. haha
i was q sad abt the girls k1 500m race cos hy shd'v had a medal placing if she wasnt sick the period just b4 nationals. felt so xin tong. just hope dat she's not too upset abt it cos i think ultimately, it's really not the end result dat matters most. it's the effort dat have been put in thruout the ceaseless training sessions, the friendships forged between the teammates, n the unforgetable memories dat we have from the time in the team dat's truly impt. thinking back abt my time in nj, the 1st thing dat comes to mind is really the canoeing part in the last 1 1/2 yrs or so. i rem calvin asking me if i regretted joining nj canoeing. without any hesitation, i said no n really meant it. being part of nj canoeing club 2003-04 is really the best part of my jc life. may nj dominate the 'A' div n 'B' div canoeing in the subsequent yrs to come!
heart n soul. go the distance! :)
random thoughts at 6:51:00 PM
just got back from sports camp universe bbq. haha slept for only abt 1hr from almost 6am to 7am at cheng xi's hostel room. i think his room is okay lah, not as cosy-looking as mine :P the fatigue's not kicking in yet, ry's still slping, there's nth much else for me to do so i'll use the time to blog. the bbq was okay. kiwi was v nice, offering to cook the food for us. his roasted marshmellows were damn gd. not too soft, not too hard, with the outer layer a little crispy. really v nice.. haha he din believe me when he asked y i was so quiet n i told him i dun really talk dat much. -shrugs- nonetheless i think he's q a nice guy, v genuine n frenly :) too bad he's not in grp A for the course, if not i think i'd enjoy his company during lectures n stuffs cos he reminds me of ah lam. haha
but anw, after the lights when out at the nanyang house rooftop, my grp went over to cheng xi's hostel at hall 7 to chitchat n play asshole daidee. drank q a bit cos kiwi let me drink his green tea + chivas n later, red wine as forfeit for the asshole daidee. admittedly, i wasnt v close to my grp b4 the bbq but i think after last nite, every1's more bonded now :) hall 7 is q happening in the dead of the nite, which is q fun cos they'v got stone tables at the courtyards for ppl to gather. as far as i noe, hall 2 dun have such things but i still lyk hall 2 cos the canteen is there, the supermart n minimart r both there, the SRC is just across the road, the busstop is right in front of my blk, so it's probably the most convenient hall to live in.
have had 1 lecture so far for the accounting module. it's actually q boring. haha reminds me of econs lecture back in nj. think coming to ntu is really q a big leap from being in nj, mayb cos the campus is much bigger, there'r unfamiliar faces everywhere, n i think the thing i dun lyk most abt uni is dat every1 basically just minds their own business n sticks to their own circle of frens. junhao is right to say dat it's to our advantage to noe more ppl n i kinda regret not going for the nbs camp but it's okay lah. i dun have trouble making frens just as long as the ppl arnd me r okay to get along with. i dun mind being alone if the ppl are seriously not my type of frens. no pt forcing myself to go along with a bunch of ppl i dun lyk yah? bleahs. speaking of making frens, lizhen n jiaying r damn cute. too bad i havent had a chance to really talk to them cos the 1st wk of the semester is more or less cancelled cos of the freshmen welcome, flag day n heritage walk.
considering to bring the extra printer at home to the hostel room cos it isnt cheap to keep going to the library of com labs to print notes from the edveNTUre system. n i'm really damn glad i alr got a laptop thanks to my uncle who bought it for me FOC. it's got lyk everything built in-wireless LAN, bluetooth, IR, practically everything i cld possibly nid to use. the LAN connection is really great tho yq says her fren said when every1 gets their laptops n log on, the system will get really slow. but i think i appreciate the free internet connection dat can b used 24/7, especially so when i'm in the hostel room cos i'v not much other alternative forms of entertainment. mayb'll get a small tv ba. not necessary but i think it's a gd thing to have in the room when u'r damn bored.
heard alot abt snrs failing many modules n having to retake them in the next sem. i'm not too worried at the moment cos i think my family is really pinning their hopes on me n i noe i will work hard when i'm required to do so. i'm going to try n aim for double specialisation, so i must work hard! yah.. wonder how things will turn out as the semester goes along, so hopefully everything'll go well ba! weijing mentioned sth abt managing time well to balance sch, cca, social life n love life.. haha for sch, there's still nth much to talk abt yet. cca, sumhow i just have dis feeling dat i'll b canoeing again but i think i wanna try sth different leh.. shall c how lah. went for cca fair n put my name down for some ccas (mostly water sports), so most prob'll just go down n try them out den c which 1 to choose lor. i dun really mind canoeing or dragonboating lah but just feel really lazy to start training again. getting old, fat n lazy. sux :( haha
social life, i think at the moment my social circle in ntu is q limited cos tho i recog ALOT of nygh ppl, they'r lyk the ppl dat i din really lyk or din talk much to, or arent fren-fren with so i'm q sian diao so c so many ny ppl. bleahs. anw i think pre-ns guys, undergoing-ns guys n post-ns guys r q different tho i cant really say why. just really find dat the guys i noe in jc n those in uni r q different. mayb cos the post-ns ones r more mature ba. -shrugs- love life,.. i guess we'll both b starting to get busy with our work n will probably spend much lesser time tog. feel damn sian abt dat cos it's not as if we meet up dat often at the moment so if we'v to spend even lesser time tog, wun dat little time tog b really little? honestly, i hafta say dat i'm worried abt not spending enuf time with each other cos i'll feel neglected even if it's not intentional. but i guess some things cant b helped. it takes 2 hands to clap lah, so we'll hafta find a way to work things out ba. asked yy yday if she preferred to b attached or not n we both agreed dat there's advantages n disadvantages for both cases. it probably boils down to individual preferences n how stable/unstable the relationship is.
abt relationships.. haha cheng xi was saying how he prefers to wait for the girl to make the 1st move instead of going to chase the girl. i think for his case, he can afford to do dat lah cos he's not bad looking. but i think most girls wldnt wanna go confess to the guy they lyk cos it's just not the norm. anw he said guys usually wldnt wan to b attached to the same girl for too long cos it's lyk playing a game. once the game is completed, most guys'll get sian of the 'game' n wanna try a new 'disk'. he said those who stick to the same gf for a long time cld b bcos they'r too lazy to change 'disk' n play a new game. actually i kinda agree with him. haha mayb it's generalisation lor, but i think it's true for most guys. i cant say it's the same for girls cos i'm still undecided abt whether or not dat applies to girls as well. haha
for me, i dun think i'll b sian of the 'game' i'm playing unless the 'game' is spoilt ba. i think i'm not the kind who will drag too long if there's a problem with the relationship. if all is well, i'm contented. i wun go arnd looking for new 'games' n i wun b interested in anything else either. but if i find dat there's a problem, i'll 1st wait n c if the situation gets better. if it doesnt, i will voice out any unhappiness, if after dat there's no change, den even if i really lyk the 'game', i think it's time to eject the 'disk'. i find no point in continueing to play when the 'disk' is damaged n cannot b saved.
the most impt thing abt being in a relationship is for both parties to b happy ba. if either 1 is not happy, den wad for torture urself? u'll just make urself feel more miserable. 19 is still q young, no rush to settle down n get married or wad, so i think it's stupid if ppl cling on to a relationship for fear of not wanting to b single or for fear of not being able to find sum1 better. i'm not sure if i believe in it, but as wad ppl lyk to say, the right girl/guy for u is sumwhere out there waiting to b discovered. if u'r not happy with ur current bf/gf, isnt it a big indication dat he/she isnt the right one for u? yup. at least dat's wad i think lah.
random thoughts at 5:12:00 PM
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
have been back from sports camp for q a few days alr. the aching is gone finally. haha :) felt the camp was q alrite, not too bad but i wldnt say i enjoyed myself alot. mayb it's cos i'm alr "red light" so i din lyk to play games dat required the guys n the girls to mingle too much n most of the time i just felt dat the games were q silly. but i guess all games r silly lah. ppl play silly games when we'r bored. bleahs
anw while i was away, i din really think much abt my family. actually, i din think of them at all apart from smsing my mum n dad to tell them i'm doing okay at the camp. think it was probably cos my parents quarrelled just b4 i left the hse for the camp so i din particularly wan to think too much abt it. but anyways, the person i missed was my dear! din noe i missed him DAT MUCH until the grand finale when the 16 different grps sat in their own little circles n taked abt the past wk n ppl started crying. i cried too. nth really abt the camp but more cos at dat moment when i closed my eyes, i only saw him. when i felt so terrible, the only 1 dat came to mind was him. dat was when i realised many things.. *smiles*
speaking of the camp, i think the cheers the GLs taught us were not bad. some of them were perfectly meaningless but nonetheless fun to shout out loudly. oh. my world (Disney!) won the grand finale n we also won the best world. haha i think dat's lyk the most memorable part of the camp for me on the world level cos every1 was overjoyed, jumping up n down n really cheering out hearts out. the GLs were so happy dat we won cos last yr's sports camp, Disney won the best world too
have been wanting to move into the hostel room for ages but until now still havent done so. think i will move tmr for sure tho.. ry's away at sentosa 2nite cos of hall camp so not much pt in me going 2nite if i'm going to stay alone. but now dat i'v packed everything nicely, suddenly feel a little reluctant to move cos dat means i gotta leave my family, my bed, my room, my hse behind :( hopefully hall life will b nice enuf to wash away my reluctance. i noe my bro will 'steal' my bed when i'm away so it makes me not wan to go too.. argh.. but nvm, as long as he doesnt drool all over my bed, i will b fine with it. haha
got my timetable 2day. so far i only noe dat ivy n ailin r taking the same subj as me, n the 3 of us r in the same lecture (mayb cos there's only 1 lecture? haha). ry havent check hers yet. hope her subjs r same as mine so can study tog at nite in our room :) i'v got no lessons at all on tues n end reasonably early everyday except for 1 day end at 6.30pm cos i got a long break in between. q happy with my timetable tho :P sch's starting next wk. must start to yong4 gong1 soon! bleahs
random thoughts at 6:11:00 AM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
had psch class gathering yday! felt really nice to catch up with every1 after 7 long yrs since we left 6/2 :) there'r so much to remember, so much to recall, so much to miss. think i miss my psch days the most out of my schooling life. i hated ny so there's nth much dat i wanna rem abt it n as for nj, haha i found my canoeing collar pin just the other day n suddenly found myself missing the times when me n my teammates, seniors/juniors rowing up n down kallang river, running round n round the track, doing weights n circuits, playing ball games n frisbee, spending time tog during the training camps.. it's all still so fresh in my mind..
anw national schools r just arnd the corner. next wk only! wish i can go n watch my juniors n b there to give them the support n encouragement they nid but i'll probably b away at hall 2 camp.. thinking of getting out of camp just to go watch but i wonder if they'll allow me too.. haha i'll c how when the time comes ba. think some of the jnrs r feeling v stressed abt it but who wldnt b? i was going crazy at dis time last yr but i'm really glad dat my teammates were there for me, mr nasiman was there to help me with my rowing, n i'm especially thankful to benjamin for all the beautiful quotes dat he'll send me daily to encourage me. altho now we arent close anymore n never will b again, i'm alr happy just to noe dat i once had such a gd fren, one so close dat i almost tot of him as a brother. still rem the times when we talked abt so manymany things, n i rem thinking dat he's q a special person cos he always shows me a different perspective on the same matter.
talking abt him makes me think of jeffrey but i shant talk so much abt him tho i think i haf much³ more to say abt him. just wan to say dat i admit dat i think he's probably the one who treats me the best tho i treat him the worst but i think dat was wad i had to do so it cldnt b helped. just think dat it's so true dat sumtimes (or actually, mayb most of the times), the person who loves u most is not the one u love most. n the the one u love most is usually not the one who loves u the most.
yup. i'll b away at camp for q a long time, i wonder how much i will b missed. bleahs
random thoughts at 6:20:00 AM
Friday, July 08, 2005
will b away at sports camp from 11th-17th july den 19th-23rd july for hall camp. wonder who's going for the camps n if my hall mates r happening. haha ry n i r in hall 2! 2 rooms share 1 toilet, which we'd hafta keep it clean ourselves (but dat shdnt b a prob unless the ppl in the other room sharing the toilet got prob lah). think it's better cos if not wanna bathe or wad den gotta walk to the common toilets which i doubt will b DAT clean anw. haha bleahs.
heard from some seniors dat hall 2 n hall 6 r the most happening halls n i think hall 2 is the most central of all cos it's in between the academic blks n the recrea centre so it's gd if i wanna go for lectures n stuff, or if i wanna go to the pool to swim or sth. anw so far i only noe yy n her roommate r in hall 7. can collect keys next wk n move in after dat. guess i'd b busy shopping for the things to bring to the hall.. :) hope hall life will b fun!
random thoughts at 2:54:00 AM
